William was a unexpected surprise. Anyone close to us can tell you that. Jeffrey and I had not been together very long before discovering that we were going to be having a baby. It was shocking, but thanks to the amazing support we were given from our families we made it work. Jeff and I both graduated from college, we have our own place, and we are finally supporting ourselves. I can't even begin to thank my parents and his parents for the financial support we were given.
Now that William is about to be 2, I tend to look back and think about how different things would have been if we didn't have him. I could have gone back to work at Disney, backpacked across Europe, gone to graduate school , and the list goes on and on. And you know how that makes me feel... sad. Not because I wish I could have done those things. Not at all actually. I feel sad because I wouldn't trade anything to not have William.
I was talking to a friend (who also had an unplanned little one) who asked me if I missed being spontaneous and getting to go out and do fun things. She said, so many of her friends don't have kids and they get to go out all the time while she is stuck at home. She's a wonderful working mom and I love her and her family to pieces, and I was kinda surprised to hear this from her.
It's true that it is difficult to be spontaneous when you have a little one. Outings require more planning and equipment than before when you could just get up and go. But it's not impossible.To me nothing is more spontaneous and fun than being a mom. I'll take a spontaneous dance party with William in the living room over a spontaneous night out partying any day of the week.
Being a mom is who I am now, and I wouldn't trade that for all the spontaneity in the world. I love William, I love Jeffrey, and I love the family we have together. I can't wait until we add more little ones to our crazy bunch.